There are so many things that used to be fun. Now they are just not. I used to love to cook. I was a great cook. Now it’s a chore, a chore that I’ve gotten very creative at avoiding. It seems pointless to spend hours preparing a meal when no one will appreciate it. Jeff loved my cooking, he almost always complimented me on my cooking skills. Now all I get are “ewww…s” and “yuck, what are those green things?” Why go through all the work of preparing roast beef when the kids would rather have frozen pizza or mac and cheese? Seriously?
I also really enjoyed the whole family dinner routine, but now, doing it alone is just pointless, part of our family is missing. I just can’t bring myself to take his place at the head of the table and it’s too much to see that place stay empty. So instead of inflicting more torture upon myself, dinner is served on the living room floor. As long as the kids don’t mind why should I?
Something else that does concern me though, is the fact that I’m not eating. Nothing tastes good anymore, and everything is too much work to prepare, so unless it comes wrapped in paper from a drive-thru I usually don’t eat much. Being as the nearest drive-thru is 1.5 hours round trip fast food is a rare treat, thankfully there are a few foods that I will eat from home. Toast, toast is good, especally with butter. Baked potatoes with sour cream are quick and easy. Frozen pizza is something I eat every other day. and last but not least cereal, Honey Bunches of Ohs or Apple Cinnamon Cheerios with milk, but I don’t drink the milk, yuck. Oh, I forgot about string cheese, and Nutrigrain bars. So all in all it’s not a bad diet. I’m getting dairy, carbs, fiber, some protein and a little tomatoe sauce. But still I’ve lost 12 pounds since nov 20th, and I had to buy smaller jeans, so if anyone has any quick, easy calorie packed foods please share them with me.