The next few days will be “the begining” but will also be “the end”. The begining of a new chapter in our lives. The begining of actually living our lives once again. The start of the “moving forward process”. Getting the kids back on a schedule, back at school, back to being Kids again. Getting organized, and taking care of ourselves. Being responsible and stable. I am scared.
It will be the end of Jeff’s “happily ever after” that he had planned for all of us. It will be the end of “feeling” him here, near us. It will be the end of the Hayloft, and the Tree fort villiage. It will be like closing a door on what was. I don’t want to. I miss the happily ever after. I wish things were different, I wish we were all back together LIVING the happily ever after. I miss him, I miss him soo much. We all miss him. Life is so unfair.
But, I will do this, I can do this.